What the heck is going on here?!

I put this blog together a while ago thinking I could use it to write about my running training; blog about my achievements and failures alike in fitness and weight loss. I thought I could use it to blog about my knitting because who wouldn't want to read about knitting?! No one who's not on ravelry.com, that's for sure. Neither idea seemed all that thrilling to me, especially given that there are countless blogs about both out there.

For what does one blog? Do you blog as an emotional outlet, to stand on a proverbial soapbox, to hopefully be heard by the masses? I guess there are plenty of reasons to blog, and everyone has their own.

For myself, I couldn't come up with what I thought was a good enough reason for blogging until recently. It's been creeping into my mind- well, more or less slamming into every corner of my thoughts- that my life is in absolute chaos! No one wants their life to be in chaos. Well maybe some people, but no sane person does. People want their lives to be simple, neat, relaxing. Calm. That would be the perfect word to describe what I would like my life to be. Calm.

Some people may say "life isn't that way. No one can have that without giving up the real world." Others may say that wanting life to be calm is just a dumb idea because, let's face it, society trains us to stay in stressful situations, to cling to clutter, to jam our schedules full, and to fill what should be moments of relaxation with the constant necessity to mindlessly check facebook, twitter, and the like. Society has trained us to gogogogo until our lives are spinning out of control. I don't want this from my life. I want to be able to enjoy it, make the most of it, and not waste it away while struggling to keep up with an ever growing "to do" list, and endless obligations.

I truly believe it's possible to live this way, without all the clutter, and running around like a chicken with it's head cut off. I believe that in order to live this way we must be willing to make changes, in my case lots of changes, but I believe that if we are willing to make those changes we can each have the type of life we want!

I don't have a plan. I never have a plan. If I did, I probably wouldn't be living an absolute mess of a life. I always have a "to do" list that seems to wind up more unfinished than the list I had before, but never a plan. So what am I going to do? Just dive right in, I guess, and hope that I can get to where I want to be. I'm giving myself a year to get there. I mean, that sounds like a good time span to completely make over my life right?

I guess what this is when you get right down to it is an experiment, not really in the scientific term at all, unless you take into consideration nothing other than the "trial and error" aspect, but an experiment all the same. I guess we'll find out soon enough if this is going to blow up in my face or not. And if it does? Well, I won't be any worse off than I am now, right?

Joanie